Getting Off the track of truth and realistics

Dear bloggie,

Hey! what do u know.

the whole curse thing is all in my head.

2 straight days.

no curse or anything.

HAIH!

lucky me.


let me see.

since i last posted now i have another fren.

he is feeq!

yay FEEQ!

haha!

he's one of the COOLEST guy i know so far.

he's sporting and don't really mind much if we're frens.

=D

okay.

since the last 48 hours.

i only slept for 8 hours.

my body is SOOOOOOOOOOOO tired.

i'm downloading koizora movie.

i'm kinda depressed thinking about work.

it takes just too much of my time.

i wanna hangout more with my frens duh!

maybe i'll have that privilege when i'm in college.

haih!




it seems now bear is more and more "connected" to anep.

way to go buddy!

haha.

maybe its about time i start hooking up with a potential GF?

eh?

aku skarang pakai E75 plak kan!

nak message gelak2 jer kot.


WTFWTFWTFWTF!

kimak indon sialan!

i wish ur life is 1,000,000 times worse than mine.

haih!


since i lost my phone.

nothing much changed kot?


but i do miss those vibrate in my pocket.








the guys visited me on work today,

Gha is already in college.

i seem to forget that a lot more these days.

oh college girl.


oh,

this is an old poem i wrote for rafiqah.

Frozen soul i bare,
Into deepest of night i ponder,
The maiden of hell still unslain,
Perhaps a suicide attempt today,
Gambling the last dignity of aces,
All lost in an instance,
It's all in a dream boat away,
For my heart,
It only wonders.

Guess that's all bloggie,
C yaaaa~

Sudah jatuh ditimpa kicap!

Dear bloggie,

yesterday i lost my phone.

today when i wanted to eat.

the kicap bottle tripped and smashed.

no, it did not fall.

it smashed ON the table.

no, i was not lifting it up.

it smashed ON the table.

no, it did not hit anything hard/sharp.

it smashed ON the table.

the fucking bottle i suppose to be that fragile?

to top the whole thing up.

the bottle was full.

(imagine the mess)

then, surprisingly. it somehow miraculously cut my feet skin and it bled like hell.

HAIH!

talk about pure curse.

day 2.

i lost 2-0.

still ignoring them.

=)

cant wait for the next curse.

until then.

c ya bloggie XOXO

A cure for today, its the poison for tomorrows

Dear bloggie,

"adakah perasaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta?"

those are the words that kept pacing in and out of my mind.

i don't understand why.

its not like I'm hating anyone right now.

=D

okay okay the gath last thursday.

I woke up kinda late so anep and i ended up being the last to arrive.

Mikki was the 1st to arrive.

"aku subuh2 dah amik train sial" were his words.

Duh!

buang tebiat!

haha.

first we all meet up at this restaurant behind Times Square.

since we saw everyone was already on half plate.

we only ordered drinks.

then off to ts and into cosmo's world.

funny thing.

Eja is now a member of sahabat91.

its been a while since i last saw her.

and she's gotten cuter. *winks*

ok ok back to story.


cosmo's entrance was Rm32.(luckily)

coz u need a MyKad to get the offer.

i left mine at home in my work pants.

luckily the cashier was drowned in my handsomeness and gave me the discount anyways.

Haha!

first we got into this spinning thing.

it was no fun, just a pain in the neck.

No, Seriously.

A pain in the neck!

my neck still hurts now.

its been like 2/3 days since the event?

ouch!

then we rode this spinning thing.

and then there was this loopy-loop thing.

and there was the roller coaster.

and then there was this thingamajig that broke down.

I got to ride the roller coaster with ovy! YAY!

A big credit to ody and boy for making things happen!

haha.

well, can't say we shared a moment or anything.

it was just a ride.

quite hopeless but still.

it was a ride.

=D

and the rest of the day...

we ate at ts,

Farah kementot got her big birthday surprise.

we all go home except me and anep.

i showed him BB for the first time in his life.

haha! padan muka ko kene jalan jauh2 sial!

merasa la ko!

ahahahahahahha

=D

sorry bloggie im kinda tired writing this piece.


okay the fun part.

work today.

saturday!

vuwah!

the items sold are like TRIPLE today.

i never thought that working as a promoter can also be quite hectic.

Sis wati said she wanted a part-timer until may.

anep was the first to show up upon my call!

cool,

but since i saw how COOL his hair was.

i decided his hair is worth more than a month's work.

sorry nep!

i had to discourage u for ur hair's sake.

truth be told.

i wanted to grow long hair like his.

he beat me to it.

aiyak!

and more news.

today, 3 more people asked me.

"Hey, ur malay or chinese?"

i wish u guys were there to see how proud i was!

haha

Sadly guys, this is me in 2 years time.

ahahahahaha!

that's kim jun from the drama "boys over flower".

=D

(okay! i was looking for a chinese model but cannot find 1 that suits me)

ceyt!

anyways.

there's this girl named dina or smthg at my work place.

we kept exchanging glances to each other.

maybe some day i'll have enough courage to go and have a chat with her?

maybe

=D





Here's the sad part.

okay okay,

yesterday morning forget it texted me for no reason at all.

it was all bullshits until she hits the question

U simpan ke my IC number?

maybe kot. asal? takot i jual kat indon? =D

;) urm. no la. u stil suke kat i ke.


and i replied so idiotically that i could win a nobel prize for being dumb.

nasik lemak i makan tadi sedap siot. org area i jer buat. pergh sambal dia garang! nak i belanje?

;) urm. pape la.

i don't answer question that u already know the answer. Or do u? =D

;) ni a^*%a la. ;) hehehe (i kinda forgot what she texted from this text onwards. sorry, her name gotta be censored)



haih!

and we kept replying bullshits and went for bed.

all in all.

she made me think bout her the whole day.

one question runs through my mind




Are You A FUCKING BOMOH FORGETIT !!!??

That's all for now.

c ya later bloggie.

XOXO

16th of April 2009, Thursday

Dear bloggie,

Referring to my title tonight i'm gonna tell u a little story about the characteristics of my dream girl. (version 2)

since my first version of ridiculous list of characteristics in a dream girl is met.

i decided to make a new one.

something that I'm confident nobody in this world can fulfill it.

okay.

1. She must not be taller than i am, but higher than my shoulder.

2. I love short haired ladies.

3. It is highlighted! i think highlighted hairs are much more attractive.

4. Her eyes MUST be something extraordinary. Having deep mysterious 3 second stares is mandatory.

5. Her eyebrows are not plucked. NO FUCKING MONO-BROW PLEASE!

6. Her nose have to be somewhat round in shape. With normal sized nostrils!

7. NO mustache and goatee. please!!!! UR A FUCKING GIRL FOR GOD'S SAKE!

8. Her upper lips MUST be kinda "melentik".

9. Juicy, moist angelina jolie's lower lips!

10. Her ears must not be "capang" at all cost.

11. Standard length neck without and double chins.

12. soft looking shoulders that shouts "I need your shoulders too putra!"

13. Nice Breast. At least size 33. bullet-train shaped is a must!

14. Not too skinny stomach. And not Buffed at all please! Girls with muscles scares me!

15. Big, well-shaped, i-wanna-SMACK-THAT-all-night-LONG ass.

16. legs aren't too skinny so that i'm not dating a fucking chopstick.

17. small,non-chicken wing flabby shit arm.

18. petite hands that somehow fits mine perfectly.

19. Smarter than she looks.

20. A total seducer!

21. Nerdy look.

22. does not need to wear tubes and miniskirts to look pretty. Tees and jeans are perfect.

23. i think i prefer someone in high heels better. high heels shapes up the ass. ^^

24. does not wear too many bangles macam keling.

25. normal girls piercing only. no tattoos or extra2 piercing on her body.

26. wears a watch.

27. rich, shops clothes occasionally, but not a shopaholic. (shopaholics scares the crap out of me!)

28. cannot care less if she broke a nail.

29. don't like to wear make-ups.

30. Not a clean or health freak.

31. does not smoke, or drink, or take drugs, or anything considered STUPID.

32. Funny.

33. Funny sounded laugh.

34. does not laugh too loud just to create attention.

35. Have the cutest giggle. (sikit2 mcm humairah ar)

36. have different types of smile. which makes her vulnerable emotionally.

37. Have a killer giggle + laugh+smile combo.

38. someone that's only shy at first around new people.

39. Have an eccentric sexy funny bad habit.

40. Someone who can't make up her mind only because its cute.

41. bright but lazy to study.

42.FAIR SKINNED!(not really a mandatory)

43. green contact lens. They somehow turns me on.

44. RIDICULOUSLY CUTE when wearing glasses.

45. Tolerate well with others.

46. someone who is not afraid to curse and say FUCK.

47. well-mannered.

48. still a virgin.

49. high cheek bones?

50. someone supposed to be famous.

51. Very Friendly.

52. An angel of kindness.

53. Honest.

54. Loyal.

55. Hardworking.

56. Motivated.

57. have strong charismatic value.

58. takes charge of situation but knows when to quit.

59. adored by thousands of guys.

60. Knows enough about the "surrounding world".

61. TOTALLY SUPER open minded.

62. Not a fake.

63. She can speak / type english well.

64. Someone that loves me for who i am.

65. Filthy rich.

66. Good genetics.

67. well-raised.

68. a bit "lurus bendul"

69. Have own transportation/does not rely on others much.

70. horny!

71. Someone that thinks "its the thought that counts"

72. Have the ability to take my breath away with each glare.

73. makes cute silly face when not in the mood or angry.

74. Someone who can laugh and laugh and laugh like there's no sorrow in this world. =D

75. accepts criticism well.

76. listens to hardcore, screamo, sentimental and trance.

77. < --- wow nombor bahaya mat!

78. Someone that is not hypocritical when it comes to music. except to some indons and keling songs.

79. Loves cartoons and animes as much as i do.

80. Someone that got her braces off already

81. a good problem teller.

82. does not fall sick often.

83. NO MOLES ON FACE!! this is so fucking mandatory!

84. Appreciates a good joke.

85. Have no weird phobias.

86. Someone adventurous and loves the wildlife like my mom (hehe)

87. Prefer to tell me "i love u" using body language more than her words.

88. Appreciates a deep looooooooooong kiss.

89. She must smell nice.

90. Someone sharp and understands everything i say.

91. i can't believe ur still reading this.

92. Someone who has an identity instead of following the current.

93. A mix or a totally non-malay.(or atleast doesn't look like pure malay) but still muslim.

94. Someone that can cheer me up with the simplest thing.

95. name does not start or rhymes with fiqah or syima.

96. Someone that cares so much that she reads stuff like this to the end

97. Definitely not someone from east coast part of Malaysia.(kelantan and so on.)

98. Someone worth my time and sacrifice.

99. Someone worth dying for.

100. Someone that can see what a loser i am now. but can also see my potentials.

^^

that's all from me for now.
until then bloggie.

c ya~

(this was written yesterday.)

Truth and reasoning

Dear Bloggie,

My internet connection at home was unavailable since a few weeks ago.

I'll be back telling my depressions to you dear bloggie soon.

very soon.

until then.

xoxo,
=)