Seventeen for The Rebellious

My dear dear bloggie.

yesterday (27th June 2009),

i've spent the night with my family again.

its RHOMA's birthday!

yay!

he's 17 now.

all grown up.

(wiping tears off my cheeks)



ahahahahaha.


CONGRATS to u bro.

hope u can do better than me in ur SPM.

and i'll be ur guide next year.



da 18 bole la wa belanja camel light sekarton.

( i kept promising him cigarettes every year. those things kills. don't i love him at all?)

ahahahahaha

nnt aku beli condom pertama kau!

siap lah!






okay2 the day.


around 8 p.m we went out tooooo.

jeng jeng jeng!

Restaurant De' Selat at port Klang

its kind of our annual restaurant for birthday dinners.

every year we visit this place.

it looks like as if time don't consume this place.

its the same as always.


here's some of the pictures i took when we finished eating.

Blurry. sorry. hands were shaking.

Zora pretending she's a photographer.

That's zora the birthday Girl today.

that's all for now!

Bon Voyage~

C ya bloggie dear.
today (28th june 2009)
zora turns 11!
Happy Birthday mokmok!

XOXO!

ILY, Bro

(put your blog title here) wendy

Dear bloggie,

tonight i'm writing coz..

uhhh..

i want to?

:')


it seems that the time for my frens departure for further studies is coming near.

and to think that i'll be left here all alone.

the only people that i can hang round with now is,

MIKKI!
capik,
amel,
lynda,

andd...


uuhhhmmm,

oh ya,

rhoma.

but since he's going to face SPM soon.

i don't think i should influence him to be lazy just like me.



okay at first i thought.

"this post is gonna be short."

but hey.

this is still short right bloggie?



the real thing is that the thought of them leaving me is just sad.

they will promise bullshits like

"balik nanti kita lepak laaaa"

"aku tak lupa ko punyaaa!!"

"aku balik nnt ko 1st aku carik dowh!"


okay the third one does not exist. i'm hoping too much.

its not that they'll be lying.

i just know human nature.

when they return.

they'll have enough money and time to hang out for only abouutttt...

3/4 times only.

i guarantee at least twice they'll be hanging out with their new frens.

its not that they'll forget me.

when people are apart for sometimes they get this awkward feeling.

its like they meet the new-same person.

and the hang-out's won't be the same.

i'm not talking about you guys.

most of my frens are okay.

:D


see i smiled.




that's in near future.

for now.

i think.

the person i don't want may haunt me later.

and the worse thing is that they don't have to do anything but keep breathing.

my emotion is a real puzzle.

i think.

i'll only appreciate the things that's gone.

how 'rare' am i right?

pffttssss..

i've rejected one.

but i'm with another.

i seriously don't love you sepet.

i know that u know this.

but its the knowledge that u thought i didn't know kept u in the white zone.

u think i still love you all these years.

now that u think we're in love.

idk what to do.

i rejected my other chance once.

it haunts me.

will you haunt me when i reject you sepet?


and then there's maera.

right now i know that we can make things happen.

but i just don't want to.

will you haunt me when i'm too late maera?


and there's lin.

i think i'm growing feelings for you and i think maybe u too?

but i just don't want to.

will you haunt me when i've lost my chance lin?


and there's eja.

i know i won't ever get you. yet i'm still pursuing slowly, stupidly, incognito.

but maybe i don't want you anyways.

will you haunt me when i've made up my mind eja?


how do you people make up your mind?

yes ketot. i think i'm just greedy.

maybe because none of them really caught my attention?

its okay, u don't have to answer my question now.

i already wrote this blog to draw a map of my mind.

maybe i'll find my way out myself.







today,

hey wendy,
i like it when u call me "my dear putra"
its quite blushing but.
i like it.
thanks feeq and son for getting us to know each other.
if only wendy reads my blog.
haha.
(sape suruh ko xikot nep)





all in all.



:')












smile.

oh please don't kill those smiles.



























at least,
that's what she told me so.

Rockabay 2009

Hey bloggie,

i went to this gig called "rockabay" at capsquare KL a couple of days back.

its been almost a day + since the gig.

my body is still aching from it.

thanks to Band 'Restraint' I mosh'ed until i can't mosh anymore that night.

though my body still hurts until now.

its nothing compare to the memory of going to a gig like this one!


Here's a short description on how the day went:

okay,

woke up at 10 something.

arrived at the capsquare around 1 p.m

once there the gig really have not started yet, so i, lynda and amel went inside the capsquare and have a look around.

there was nothing much except for a TGV cinema.

so, we went to the 4th floor to sit around but the organizers seems to be giving away free t-shirts, stickers and poster.

we rushed down and

hey what do u know.

we met Mikki there!

yayyy fate!

haha.

(also his sister anne and her hotcuteinnocentlookinglyhardcore fren)

after a few rounds of pushing and ramming the crowd in front of this counter,

i managed to get 3 t-shirts for us 3 and mikki got 3 also.

then all 6 of us went up to the 4th floor inside capsquare (again) to sit around while the gig starts.

a little snapsnap and i saw there's people rushing towards the platform.

"Weyh, gig da start dowh. gerak ah jom!"

so we went down there and didn't leave until 8 p.m.

introduction ends.

first up was the band car crash test.
they play rock alternative.
it was okay.

i'll give them 5/10.



Second band was Medusa.
They play hardcore.
They were really good!
i think their song arrangement was unpredictable and surprising.
reminds me a lot of 'Drop Dead, Gorgeous'

i'll gladly give them 8/10.


the third one was deng deng etc. a chinese hardcore band.
yes,
they're chinese and the vocalist can scream and growl very well!
how do i know this?
coz he freaking sang a chinese song man!

it was a 5/10 performance.

then after these opening acts i forgot what comes up next.

but let me give my rating for the bands i managed to watch.

bunkface 7/10

the times (x tgk sgt coz sabah mabuk bodoh)

Bittersweet 8/10

estranged (x tgk gak sebab sabah bodoh ank haram jijik!)

seven collar t-shirt 10/10 !!

couple 9/10

cassandra 9/10

RESTRAINT 20/10 !!!

i missed pesawat, pop shuvit, one buck short and love me butch.

i fucking came there to watch LMB but i missed them.

ARGHH!!!

curse you transportation that takes up time!

haha.


the gig couldn't be any better.

not to mention the time i get to spend with lynda.

and not to mention the hotties that came.

O_O

a total eye-bulging experience duh!

haha.

Oh!

did mention about this chick moshing all alone?

she looks like the vocalist of paramore!

and she's REALLY COOL SHIA!!!

haha!


mikki had to leave sooner because he gotta settle some other stuff before going back to UiTM.

all in all.

its an experience unlike any other.


hihi.

"a picture is worth a thousand words."

if that's the case.

these pictures makes this post the longest post so far?

haha.

The view from 4th floor capsquare.
see the stage?



see it now?
haha.



From left:
mikki, anne, hotstuff, amel, lynda
ouh.
popcorn ditaja oleh Mikki.
hihihi

Couple band playing.
vocalist on green tees there.



Bittersweet!!!!




This was cassandra i think?




Mosh during cassandra playing!
Credits to:
lyndaflicko.blogspot.com




Ahmil and i resting.
during the times i think?




Seven collar T-shirt!
the vocalist on black shirt.
OHEMGEE!
he was so great!


bunkface playing.



my expression watching bunkface.
:|


restraint starting.
the last and only band i could watch at night.


RESTRAINT!

as a conclusion.
RESTRAINT ROCKS!
i'll catch LMB on their next gig.
i hope.
that's all for my gig tour for this post.
cya!

Rock on hXc 's!!

A toast for the poker king!

Dear Bloggie,

last night most of the guys in bukit naga celebrated the parting of our dear Rais.


if i recall correctly.

he's the one with the best skills in poker, speed card, and tick-tack-toe.

he used to be the best rempit around too (once).

but when a tragedy happened upon him in form 2,

his dad put a leash on him.

a really fucking tight one.

and now he's back to his nice guy self.

the thing i hate most about rais is that.

he has this really fit body.

and he has this amazing girl as a girlfriend (and probably gonna be his wife) since form 1.


WOAH!





well let's talk about the bbq now.

uhmm..

it was okay i guess?

first when i arrived ayen already started the fire.

so there was not much to do.

then after adding more charcoal and scatter it evenly we started cooking the chicken.

Jad:

"eh. mana serai nk spread minyak nih?"

ahahahahaahahha!

so, capik and rais ran to the shop (using a bike) and fetch it.

meanwhile.

atok a.k.a farizul starts on setting the shisha.

PERGH!

Dubai made peach flavored!

and when atok is the one that sets it.

TIPPYTOPBLINGYNESS!!!!!!!!

100% puuurrrrrrrrrrrrfecktiong!

Bukit Naga is not just a name anymore.

hahahaha.

smokes would come out of nose and mouth.

sooo thick and feeling!

hihihihi.

best dowh nep! mikki!

ahahahahaa

during this time there's me, capik, ayen, jad, atok, rhoma, and rais.

then mamat and zack came there from uptown shah alam.

later ayol and some dude (jad's fren. let's call him kelili) came.

after eating a couple of rounds.

i started playing poker with rais, atok and kelili.

i won a few ending rounds.

hihihihi.

rais only lose once though.

CIS!!!!!


=D

then after finding out it was already 12.30 a.m

i went home with mujed.

it was nice having a bbq with frens once in a while.

=)


oh, and here's some picture.

That's Rais.

Yummyness!!

The Mee-hoon is still plenty left.

Meet Ayol.

This is Mujed. =D

Ittadakimasu!

This session's Photographer a.k.a farizul a.k.a atok

Capik on left and right is ayen.

The OH so famous poker card!

The shisha set by atok.

Tomorrow i have a date with destiny!
movies, karaoke with frens.

hihihihihi.

c ya bloggie DEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!

ILY!

hihihihi!


XOXOXOOXXXXXXXXXXXXXX!!

Peace Out!

Honestly, it was an honest mistake. HONEST!

Heiya hoiya HOY! bloggieeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!! YEAH!

hihihi.

i just thought i'd start off rocking.

okay okay


when i woke this morning i thought.

MONDAY!

15th JUNE day!

GAJI DAY YAY!


the time was around 1 p.m ++ (snoozing is soo awesome!)

when i woke up my original plan was to go to klang by bus and check my account there.

but luckily i remembered rhoma said that Kota Kemuning also have a Maybank there.

so, i called the MOST dependable person in the whole wide world.

hadymonafloutsagawajacastellohellomilocamellowello

a.k.a Hady


=)


in 98% of my time in need of a vehicle.

he is ALWAYS, i repeat

ALWAYS there for me and rhoma.

he's really cool.

i owe him SO much.

but he does get irritating quite easily because of his..

uhhhmmm...

slowpidity?

:)

but all in all.

he's a real gentleman.




okay okay back to my story.

since i think that taking the bus would be TOOO troubling.

i called hady instead.

(this conversation has been cut and edited)

"hello adi, weh! nanti bawak aku gi maybank kota cucuk gaji leh x? nnt aku belanja"

"haa. ok ok. tp lambat skit a. aku kena anta adik aku gi skola kol 2"

"okeh sateady hady!"

"ha ok ok bye"


and he came around 2.15 pm.

then we rushed to the maybank.

"kak update buku bank boleh?"

waiting.
waiting...
waiting......

"dik, takde pape baru lah"









its monday and my salary still have not been banked in yet?

WTF!

the promised outing is on wednesday.


eh manade pokai.
tak pokai ahhh!!


oh damn!

then as i take my sad trip home, hady even comforted me.

how do i repay him?

"Eyh bodoh la di! tgk la camne aku buat. ko taip la "GOOGLE" betol2 bodo! bkn "GOOBLES"! la"

haih.

no matter how nice he is.

he's still slowupid.

but i really owe him a million.


then

SHOW ME WHAT U GOT! HEY! WHATCHOUT!!!!!!!

(my ringtone is "fallback" by OH! chentaku)

"hello"

"hello, ini encik putra hakim ke?"

"ye saye"

"saya dari jabatan agama islam selangor....(bla bla bla)"

(eh ada ke aku ngandungkan org baru2 nih? xingat pon?)

(eh fuck lenggok sore mcm feeq ah!)

"ye feeq nk apa?"

"eh! camne ko tau nih aku?"

yadiyadiyaddaaa (i skip...!)

"put ko skang free tak? aku ada surprise utk ko nih"

(i don't think feeq knows my birthday. or do he?)

"ah. free dtg ah amik aku"



then he came, picked me and anep up, and off we go to bandar botanic.

his dad's restaurant to be precise.




then came to my surprise.


SON!








my old hati-kering-gila-babi friend!

its been like a few years since we really hang out together!

hahahaha!

he is much much skinny than our last encounter.



feeq is as awesome as ever.

when i was there.

i ate kuey tiaw kung-fu (in a REALLY LARGE PLATE)

and drank teh O ais limau.

for free.

eh? what?

YES DUDE and dudettes

FOR FREE!

WAH!

ILY feeq!

anep also ate for free.

but sadly he gotta pay for his milo ais!

wahahahahahahah!

then after a meal and a few rounds of poker.

we shared what we have and put it in the gas tank.

this is the time i noticed.

i hav only RM6 in my pocket + wallet.

eh!
manade pokai.
TAK POKAI AH!

so, i just shared RM5 same as anep.



the early plan was to go to sunway pyramid and just hangout there.

"Son, ko tau jalan an?"

"aaaa jalan jee"

he dozed off.

feeq

"put, mana nih put?"

"terus je lagi. bkn belok subang nih. nih pusing tah kemana tah ni"

(Honestly i tot we were on another highway. seriously)

i kept on looking for the segi college on the right to appear anyyy minute now.

"eh put. ni da sampai KL da nih put"

son

"depan sikit ko bole nampak bangunan2 KL"

EYH WTF!

HONESTLY GUYS!

i forgot.

and the 1st turn that i ignored was the right way all along.

instead of sunway, we ended up pusing-pusing-satu-KL.

First, we headed to bangsar village.

it was much closer than i thought it ever was.

then off to KLCC/BB/PAVILI/LOWYAT.

but then.

"ehh. banyak lak polis mlm nih?"

"baik blah je ar"

soo..

after being lost for about an hour or so in KL.

we head back to shah alam for Pak Li Kopitiam because feeq was hungry.

in the car we karoke'd together.

First:!!

MUSE - STARLIGHT!

BUNKFACE - SITUASI!

DAVID ARCHULETTA - IFORGOTWHATTHENAMEOFTHESONGWAS!

actually we sang a lot.

i can't remember what songs we sang.

hihihihihi.

all in all it was one hell of a night.

it was fun, tiring, happy, crazy night!

after we ate at Pak Li.

feeq wanted to go to Uptown Shah Alam.

it was dreadfully BORING.

the only entertainment was some bossoms and this really cute girl attending this one shop.

AH!

not forgetting this DAMN! prank!

some dudes place a fake snake and put it at a dark corner in uptown.

at first only feeq noticed it.

but when we came back and have a look.

WOO!!

it does look like real.

and eventhough it looked and i knew it was fake.

it still gave me a fright with its sudden movement.

the dude that controls the snake must have tonnes of experience scaring people with the snake.

seriously!

WTF!


then we head home.

and uhmm.

that's all.


here's some pics for you.

Feeq driving around Bangsar Village.

Anep around KL area?

Me. at Pak Li

and when in KL when we reached around UM area,
i went JK seriously.
maybe its bcoz of ody studies in UM.
most probably because of my dreams studying there.


shattered.

=)

C ya bloggie dear.
ily!
XOXOXOXOXOXXXXXX!

A little more for a little you.

Dear Bloggie.

here's some random pictures I have in my lappy.

=D

Here's an old picture of me and capik.
Around december 2008 i think.
I think we were suppose to be studying this time.
Oh well.
;D

Here's a picture of me on my school trip.
It was a trip to Pahang I think?
This was really an unexpected shot.
=P

This was captured on the birthday of my dear friend Syah.
He's an old buddy WAAYY back.
We knew each other from Ragnarok Online.
He's a really cool dude.
imy man.
=D

That's me doing "Dikir Barat" for my school's teacher day.
Picture taken on year 2008 i think.
Oh, dikir barat. Gooood times.
=D

Taken a few weeks back.
Overnight at section7 Shah Alam.
It was really sudden.
Thanks A lot Wan, Zakwan.
You guys rock to the core.
;D




Taken around 7th june i think.
At Tasik Kota Kemuning.
From left.
me, ayen, xkenal, mamat, xkenal.
It was quite cool for mamat to invite me to tag along.
It was a wedding day mania!
i'm suppose to attend 3/4 weddings.
but managed to go to 2.
hihi.
;D

Me and Rhoma taken early 2008 i think.
I love this picture.
Haha.
And i miss that hair of mine.
=D

Taken on 12th June.
Birthday Jad Zakwan.
Shisha.
It was a really last minute notice.
I like this picture too!
=D



Taken By Anep
Originally pictures taken for lala's sign picture.
wacky times!
Imy boy, mikki.
bila lagi nk lepak weh!
=D

I guess this is all for now bloggie dearest.

Some memories.

C yaa~

A little more for a little you.

Lines of want, need, lust and desire.

Dear bloggie,

today i got a "heart to heart" talk with my oldest brother Ammar.

its more of speech than a talk.

coz i kept quiet for most of the time.





most of the time when i get these kind of talks he'd always go with reminding me how powerful human brain can be.

Its not something to be toyed with.

Take a good look at Hitler.

As I surf through the pages I did read some of the lines each page on his book "Mein Kampf"

its about his glory path to his fame, and his death.

Yes, his hair sucks.

as I was saying,

whenever i stopped at a page and read,

it always be on how Hitler commands and manipulates other people around him.

Hitler is one god damned leech.

He'd use all of the people around him and step on them to achieve his ambition.

I can't say he is a nice bastard.

But the way he's able to control the people around him like a puppet is truly remarkable.

Just the same as "Dr. Hannibal Lecter".

Consequences of watching redtube while hands are tied

If you still don't know who is HL,

he is a character in an epic trilogy.

starting from Silence of the lambs followed by Hannibal and later Red Dragon.

HL is one mad psychiatrist that is able to torture a person not just physically but mentally as well.

Looks calm doesn't he?

If you gotta go. Go out with a Smile

To tell you the truth bloggie.

THIS is the type of person i sought to be.
A brilliant psychiatrist that is able to manipulate anyone around me even if we just met.
That is my true explanation of obsession and horror.

This is what I want to be.

Be careful world.

I might shock you one day.

=)





okay back to my bro's speech.

he said (i made this brief for you) before i want to choose my path.

I have to think about what I want.

Not what my dad, mom, brothers, siblings or even friends expect.

What I want!

He made me think the concept of "thinking outside the box"

Define thinking, and define what is "the box"

at first i thought

"Thinking outside the box. It means Possibilities"

but then he said

"You have everything u want in mind? Now think about your Limits and Boundaries."

That made me think twice.

My perception of thinking outside the box changed instantly.

"It is still about Possibilities. The box is there to limit us to our boundaries. Thinking outside of our boundaries give birth to mad possibilities. Which in turn is what we needed after all."

It made me narrow down my options.

I :

Love human anatomy and medics.
have my gift in English vocabulary and literature.

My Limits:

Suck at math.
Lazy.
I have this disease called "bookswithlongtextismysleepingpill syndrome"
I change my mind easily after countering problems.
I Avoid conflicts and problems instead of facing them.


which leaves my options to:
Mass Communication
TESL
Nursing
Pharmacy
Radiography
Foundation in English.

this seems to be quite disturbing.


since Doctorate and Dentistry have mathematics subjects and sadly I'm not qualified to take them i just have to put my ambitions on hold for now.

Every time I think I'm stupid and I can't change the world.

I'll stop and remember,

Einstein was quite a dumb retard in his youth.
Stephen Hawking was Dumb.
Beethoven was Deaf.

And a famous quote always get me through it all.

"Success is not how many times you manage to succeed. But, its how many times you get up and start again after your defeat."

That's all.

see ya bloggie dear.

=)