Lines of want, need, lust and desire.

Dear bloggie,

today i got a "heart to heart" talk with my oldest brother Ammar.

its more of speech than a talk.

coz i kept quiet for most of the time.





most of the time when i get these kind of talks he'd always go with reminding me how powerful human brain can be.

Its not something to be toyed with.

Take a good look at Hitler.

As I surf through the pages I did read some of the lines each page on his book "Mein Kampf"

its about his glory path to his fame, and his death.

Yes, his hair sucks.

as I was saying,

whenever i stopped at a page and read,

it always be on how Hitler commands and manipulates other people around him.

Hitler is one god damned leech.

He'd use all of the people around him and step on them to achieve his ambition.

I can't say he is a nice bastard.

But the way he's able to control the people around him like a puppet is truly remarkable.

Just the same as "Dr. Hannibal Lecter".

Consequences of watching redtube while hands are tied

If you still don't know who is HL,

he is a character in an epic trilogy.

starting from Silence of the lambs followed by Hannibal and later Red Dragon.

HL is one mad psychiatrist that is able to torture a person not just physically but mentally as well.

Looks calm doesn't he?

If you gotta go. Go out with a Smile

To tell you the truth bloggie.

THIS is the type of person i sought to be.
A brilliant psychiatrist that is able to manipulate anyone around me even if we just met.
That is my true explanation of obsession and horror.

This is what I want to be.

Be careful world.

I might shock you one day.

=)





okay back to my bro's speech.

he said (i made this brief for you) before i want to choose my path.

I have to think about what I want.

Not what my dad, mom, brothers, siblings or even friends expect.

What I want!

He made me think the concept of "thinking outside the box"

Define thinking, and define what is "the box"

at first i thought

"Thinking outside the box. It means Possibilities"

but then he said

"You have everything u want in mind? Now think about your Limits and Boundaries."

That made me think twice.

My perception of thinking outside the box changed instantly.

"It is still about Possibilities. The box is there to limit us to our boundaries. Thinking outside of our boundaries give birth to mad possibilities. Which in turn is what we needed after all."

It made me narrow down my options.

I :

Love human anatomy and medics.
have my gift in English vocabulary and literature.

My Limits:

Suck at math.
Lazy.
I have this disease called "bookswithlongtextismysleepingpill syndrome"
I change my mind easily after countering problems.
I Avoid conflicts and problems instead of facing them.


which leaves my options to:
Mass Communication
TESL
Nursing
Pharmacy
Radiography
Foundation in English.

this seems to be quite disturbing.


since Doctorate and Dentistry have mathematics subjects and sadly I'm not qualified to take them i just have to put my ambitions on hold for now.

Every time I think I'm stupid and I can't change the world.

I'll stop and remember,

Einstein was quite a dumb retard in his youth.
Stephen Hawking was Dumb.
Beethoven was Deaf.

And a famous quote always get me through it all.

"Success is not how many times you manage to succeed. But, its how many times you get up and start again after your defeat."

That's all.

see ya bloggie dear.

=)