(put your blog title here) wendy

Dear bloggie,

tonight i'm writing coz..

uhhh..

i want to?

:')


it seems that the time for my frens departure for further studies is coming near.

and to think that i'll be left here all alone.

the only people that i can hang round with now is,

MIKKI!
capik,
amel,
lynda,

andd...


uuhhhmmm,

oh ya,

rhoma.

but since he's going to face SPM soon.

i don't think i should influence him to be lazy just like me.



okay at first i thought.

"this post is gonna be short."

but hey.

this is still short right bloggie?



the real thing is that the thought of them leaving me is just sad.

they will promise bullshits like

"balik nanti kita lepak laaaa"

"aku tak lupa ko punyaaa!!"

"aku balik nnt ko 1st aku carik dowh!"


okay the third one does not exist. i'm hoping too much.

its not that they'll be lying.

i just know human nature.

when they return.

they'll have enough money and time to hang out for only abouutttt...

3/4 times only.

i guarantee at least twice they'll be hanging out with their new frens.

its not that they'll forget me.

when people are apart for sometimes they get this awkward feeling.

its like they meet the new-same person.

and the hang-out's won't be the same.

i'm not talking about you guys.

most of my frens are okay.

:D


see i smiled.




that's in near future.

for now.

i think.

the person i don't want may haunt me later.

and the worse thing is that they don't have to do anything but keep breathing.

my emotion is a real puzzle.

i think.

i'll only appreciate the things that's gone.

how 'rare' am i right?

pffttssss..

i've rejected one.

but i'm with another.

i seriously don't love you sepet.

i know that u know this.

but its the knowledge that u thought i didn't know kept u in the white zone.

u think i still love you all these years.

now that u think we're in love.

idk what to do.

i rejected my other chance once.

it haunts me.

will you haunt me when i reject you sepet?


and then there's maera.

right now i know that we can make things happen.

but i just don't want to.

will you haunt me when i'm too late maera?


and there's lin.

i think i'm growing feelings for you and i think maybe u too?

but i just don't want to.

will you haunt me when i've lost my chance lin?


and there's eja.

i know i won't ever get you. yet i'm still pursuing slowly, stupidly, incognito.

but maybe i don't want you anyways.

will you haunt me when i've made up my mind eja?


how do you people make up your mind?

yes ketot. i think i'm just greedy.

maybe because none of them really caught my attention?

its okay, u don't have to answer my question now.

i already wrote this blog to draw a map of my mind.

maybe i'll find my way out myself.







today,

hey wendy,
i like it when u call me "my dear putra"
its quite blushing but.
i like it.
thanks feeq and son for getting us to know each other.
if only wendy reads my blog.
haha.
(sape suruh ko xikot nep)





all in all.



:')












smile.

oh please don't kill those smiles.



























at least,
that's what she told me so.